I did it, I finally deleted my blog (it will be back but not self hosted) . It's quite sad to see when I tried to load it after it was cancelled for the first time but its refreshing to move onwards!
My mum actually printed off my entire blog for me (took me about 4 hours copying and pasting it!) and now I had a proper diary of all the things that have happened in my blog life to go through whenever I want.
Now I can focus on my fresh start here, it feels good, energising!
Watch this space!